'Survival' Camp

  Some of my colleagues asked me, "Sure, it's just a leadership camp. Why worry so much?"

  Others asked me, "If you are concerned about it, then why sign up in the first place?"

  Sure, it's just a leadership camp. There will be around 60 people for the camp. However, to me, this is not a simple do-what-they-say thing: I'm practically on my own this time. I can easily get along with the I am assigned to. The real problem, however, is my own: I can NEVER settle comfortably when around a HUGE group of people. Even 11(Excluding myself) is a LOT! I usually find myself more comfortable in social situations with a small group of friends (up to 5 people excluding myself). When too many people are around, and seem to me that they are each fighting for dominance for themselves, I tend to find it really difficult to communicate.

  This will be the first time I go out of Singapore with my parents' permissions but without them watching my back 24/7. I can handle myself in some survival situations. Those that require instincts such as path-finding, finding drinkable water and starting fire with the bow method. All these skills I picked up from those survival books in both Primary School library and Secondary School one. I did all these when:

• I didn't feel like getting something to eat in the canteen
• The teacher dismisses us late for recess
• I can't be bothered to stick around with nerds who always think I am an option in their social circle
• I don't really want to play basketball with my REAL secondary school friends(Except Jacky) because either he was there, or it was damn sunny
• To avoid feeling uncomfortable around the presence of someone(Not because of her flaws or that she is a bad person)

  Anyways, I bet the most of us will not be able to sleep well on the first night, if not two. We Singaporeans have grown complacent with sleeping in air-conditioned shelters on cushioned beds or mattresses covered in think, warm blankets. Adaptability is an issue for us. Also there's a concern on whether I will get dehydrated, or even over-hydrated. Both are not good, by the way.

  Here is my progress thus far:

  And it is already around 9 p.m. Worse is, my bag is pretty small. Even worse, this is not even a quarter of all the things I have to bring, which exclude survival tools since I doubt they will even be needed in the first place. Damn... And it is getting late.

  Actually, even I have no idea why I signed up for this in the first place. Sure, there is the NYAA Adventure section, the leadership skills to learn, SB Ambassador and all that. These are not my first thoughts when I signed up. It was pretty spontaneous... Very soon, in less than 12 hours, we will leave Singapore for a... 'survival' camp.

  Oh and by the way, I just inserted a profile picture for my Blogger! :)