Well, guys. I must first apologize for not posting this right away. If you want a reason why I didn't do so, I was more than fatigued after long hours of restlessness. Pretty hard to focus on any tasks at hand, including Twitting and even scrolling down Facebook. Even now, I even find myself having a hard time typing accurately (I think I pressed the backspace key more than other keys!). Today, I share the things that happened at Kota Tinggi camp, which has not only straightened my paradigm, but also turned it the other way round.
This is the photo taken on the last day of camp. The people in this group are those who changed me quite a lot. A word to describe us would be "Rojak" (Malay word for "mixture"); An assortment of fruits (Personality) and vegetables (Character) in a dressing (Common goal as leaders). And by the way, I'm Chinese and understands a little bit of "Bahasa Melayu".
It was fun and memorable all the time. It changed my paradigm. How I saw the world. How I felt about the world. I know this sounds a lot like those reflections in school activities which most of us believe to be a waste of time. But then, I can't help it... If I don't, then you all would have thought, "What have you been doing these past four days, man?"
In the camp, perhaps the roles I took is more towards the "supporter" than the "leader". Then I found a nicer word for my role which I refused to share with you all in fear of doubt. The word is "Synergist"; The guy who builds the bridge so that no one falls into the crevice of "being left out".
Some of the more notable activities in the camp occurred in Day 3, which was more outdoor than indoor: The rain-forest trek as well as campfire night, when I fell into the "man of action" mood. In the trek, I couldn't resist the feeling of "袖手旁观" by pausing on the spot to help my friends. In fact, I think I disobeyed the orders of "only helping the person behind me" by stepping out of the line to support everyone else. Another thing that happened was when I felt the hype of dancing, that caused me to do the 'Gangnam Style" dance maniacally to the music. I stepped out of the introvert's comfort zone and danced to the music, as well as the group choreography during the campfire session.
And by the way, sleeping in was a difficult chore, especially for some of us who chose to stay up for the night to spend more time with our fellow colleagues and friends. Also, I stepped up as leader of my group at least once.
Even until now, we still chat as a group in Whatsapp. This shows how we will not forget one another.
I would like to thank some of my friends in this camp who have supported me and got me out of some of my personal endeavors and revealed my capabilities as a great leader:
- Chin Hao, who was like my camp buddy; the guy who accompanied me most of the time
- Kyle, Ben and Matt, who were bros to me and supported me to ascension into a great leader
- Jia Ning, who encouraged me to stand strong and speak up as a great leader
- Stefanie and Daena, who sometimes speak to me personally to get to know me better
- Hui Jia, who made me realize my paradigm of a 'Synergist'
- Jonathan, Shu Yang and Nicole, who somehow inspired me that anyone and everyone can be leaders
- And, of course, our 'Murderer Game' Narrator... Xun Bin!
In this whole journey, I have learned so much about myself, the people around me, and how to learn more about the people in this society. I feel that the first group of people I could do this could be my fellow "Noble Team" members (Yes. That includes The Depressed Guy). There is still so much more I could understand about him. BX too; the prophet who worries that he cannot do much to change his prophecies. I could seek to understand more about that girl I had a crush on five years ago(I knew her seven years ago), and perhaps so that I could return her the gratitude of once bringing up confidence in me. And should I do so, it would be with the Leader's paradigm.
