My point is not placed on superheroes, nor those who want to ACT heroes and get themselves killed. I am trying to say that... You are never alone. Know that there will always be at least two or three people who stalk you, or simply happen to discover your journey. The spectacular things that catch their attention(80% being the guy liking a girl whose name they know) are bound to evolve into gossips. A weakness that ultimately leads to many sensitive souls' biggest weaknesses: Rejection. Well, knowing the Internet for what it had become over the years, netizens term it a much more 'unique' way: Friend-zone. Then there are also these couple of tough guys who will fight rejection and persevere. One such as myself.
I have gotten over almost everything about my previous broken relationship, save the feeling of nostalgia when I encounter her somewhere. I could have easily walked up to her, say 'Hi' and strike some small conversation with her, but well... Old habits are hard to change you know... Personally, what I feel that is my biggest problem is... my body. I seriously need to workout when I have the chance. Maybe abs can allow me to stomach more confidence?
After reading this post from my bro (For your information, my blood-related siblings do not even know what the hell is a BLOG...), I feel that I might as well be ready to reveal this rather dumb thing in my head over these past few years... While the people around me influence my life a lot since I am more extrovert than introvert, I also seem to influence the people around me, sometimes in an undesirable way. I can still remember how my friends always say that I am the beacon of luck for my team, despite the misfortunes I actually had for myself. To put it simply, when I feel really unlucky, people close to me elsewhere seem to be hailed by this beam of light from heaven, leaving me with the lemon-light(Opposite of limelight).
My point is... Maybe my misfortunes in my relationship had somehow influenced my bro's, unfortunately in the undesirable way. It feels like all these are controlled by some huge scale(Imagine Libra). So when I feel down on luck, I become lighter and go upwards, while the people close to me suddenly gains luck and goes down. In this unfortunate incident, I have pretty much gotten over my relationship problem, so I feel lighter. However, this bro of mine suddenly gets burdened and goes down. My misfortunes are the vermin, annoying me and later creeping to someone else when I am supposedly NOT responsible for them. And for that, I am truly sorry...
Italy, who beat Germany 2-1 in the Euro Cup 2012 semi-finals, losing to Spain 0-4 is quite the disgrace... Having to even get the idea that someone you care for is suffering out there, and yet you cannot do anything but hope for their best, is also quite the mood-killer. Karma is a bitch for punishing those without it, AND a JERK for not rewarding those with it. Love, including that disgusting smoochie-smoochie and groping and friend-zoning and dumping you for someone else, is something WORSE than vermin.In fact, the aftermath of having to let go of a butterfly you spent three-hours trying to catch, is just HORRIBLE. Well... My only solution to such things when they actually happened to me is: find some laughs and exchange friendly insults with peers to feel better and not-alone. Friends are like the more peaceful form of love without the heartbreaks and hating, right?
