Atheists

In our study of The Unseen during CH Literature period, Mr Chua sort of introduced us to a new term, which I do suppose is a good term to describe my entire family of sinful, corrupt souls: Atheists.

Being in the neutral position, I suppose that the goddamn debate of creation vs evolution is no big deal. Possible answers are boundless behind just any mysteries. Also, I am one who would gladly and confidently say: "I worship God". So what if I was born a Buddhist? That doesn't limit the level of respect I could present to anybody... Okay, take this situation for a great example to what I'm intending to say...

Assuming you had a new neighbor, whom the new neighbor's son happens to be your colleague, or say... crony. However, he is a free-thinker. Let's assume you are born as a... say... Taoist. Just because of belonging to different religion, your parents force you to sever all ties of friendship with him and never, ever come into contact anymore. Not even play baseball, not even talk. Worse still, you MUST stay at least 3 meters away from him.

Of course, this story is not real, and currently will NEVER get real, thanks to world peace and Singapore's cultural awareness and other multiracial stuff. But what IF this really happened?

Linking back to "atheism"... It is THEY who find me despicable, because I'm a theist. My unsophisticated, soft-willed, and cold-hearted father always nagged about things like "God doesn't exist, because no one in this world had seen Him before... Blah blah blah... We work independently for our own survival..."

Then he contradicts himself by saying, "Buddha created the world and helps us all."

Surely he must have sidetracked in his religious study, either due to perversion or pure slowness. Even I heard from my parents that my father can be so slow that she needs to prompt him at least 3 times to receive his attention. Fuck this! Can't believe I'm the son of an asshole with very slow reaction... So whenever I get landed in trouble because of hereditary slowness:

"God Bless Me and Everyone"

By the way, isn't it pretty strange that I seem almost totally opposite of my father, mother and brothers?

Control

The 'O' Levels are meant to keep express students like us busy. Yet there are still some who have yet to be convinced of the education propaganda "Less slack, more work". Among one of these people would be the notorious Christ Church Secondary's champion of depression, Ray. I do salute him for taking the opportunity to study out with his friend. However, in my own philosophical view, he has yet to achieve inner peace. He has a long way to go.

Inner peace is not the mentality of ignoring flaws to avoid hindrances. In fact, ignorance only serves to cripple even the sturdiest of warlords. This notion has, in fact, a very direct description to that punk. Sure, he deserves credit for studying even during those rare well-deserved rest, but that is also the problem. He still don't know how to ACCEPT facts.

He ain't wrong for asking us out today. He did ask me out this morning. That was okay. However, when it comes to asking my two other bros, BX and Bran, is where his flaws surfaces from his deep, complex mind. I am convinced to why so many people dread socializing with the likes of him. I am also quite convinced of why his crush, Victoria, avoided him. Truth is... He committed a sin so heavy that not a single MAN should have did: being self-centered.

Asking people to fulfill his promise without considering the circumstances. He's practically too selfish. Can anyone board a 40-minutes-each train ride back and forth, eat and chat, all after 4pm. Dude, we are from the northern part of Singapore. So what if Singapore is a small country? To travel there by the fastest transport possible can take up a total of 80 minutes of wasting time. Hanging out doesn't depend on the place, it should depend on the mood of the people being asked out for...

Next thing is... About another friend of mine: the Presbyterian High dude with an inextinguishable Will of Fire, BX. His mood is clearly stressed by the upcoming exam of our lives. By common senses, it is normal for youths like us to be deprived of our moods because of the second examination that will determine our future lives. However, he is not me. He ain't me, Al. His mood ain't sensitive to changes of surroundings and situations. This mean that... He can't cheer up freely at will. This is one of the reasons why I'm concerned about him. After all, he belongs to the Brotherhood.

On the way home, whatever he told me made me come to a general conclusion: he wants control over his 'id and ego'. He don't want to be distracted by the 'social world of fun', with Timezone and LAN for examples. He wants a clear mind to focus and thus strive for a great future.

As for me... I don't think I need immediate aid. Yet I don't look as if I have no problems at all either. I just have to get along with some of my classmates, and the teachers too... Have I ever mentioned that the school attendants know me very well for politeness? I have made it a habit to say "Uncle 早" or "Aunty 早", and their replies would be "早！" or "Hey".

If only life was... merrier...