Parallel Shift

Shadows can never have their own sense of belonging. Always mimicking the footsteps of people. Forever stalking them to receive their undeserved attention. To the extent of people treating their existence as "conventional and worthless". Of course, no one in this world want to be shadows, unless he is really gay, or she a lesbian. Ever heard of "zero-point inversion"? I kinda figured this phrase out myself. "Zero-point inversion", in my opinion, would mean seeing something in a one-sided perspective, however avoiding the internal reality which could be the entire opposite. Like seeing black as white, and seeing green as red. This "zero-point inversion" happened to me for so long... Like how I used to see that girl as a quiet and delicate girl, until recently when I found out she's a foul-mouthed FREAKING LESBIAN!

Rather than dwell in past failures, I have decided to start afresh as a "new" person in school. It may seem to some people in my class as turning over a new leaf, yet it may seem to people like Jacky that I have gone ape-shit and lost all of my conscience and turned into a lunatic.
A message to those who thought I turned over a new leaf: I'm merely removing this mask on me for at least 3 years and 8 months.
Message to Jacky's accomplice who think me crazy: Fuck You.

Ever since i started partaking active roles in class well-being and other nick-knacks, many people in my class(Excluding Jacky and slumlord friends) started to think me as an approachable and hilarious person. I'm very sure Mr Rice, Mr UV Ray and Mr GE can imagine. As such I have been deprived of a lot of free time I used previously to sleep and take naps and slack... I feel very, very busy. Yet I feel a certain accomplishment in this. After all, I gained high levels of trust of at least one-third of the class population.

some shadows have to remain inferior... forever

Ruffled

I shall take out my revision notes on Humanities and Sciences. I shall start practicing for Mathematics. I shall work on English Language. I shall stay clear of Mother Tongue, unless I need to in the coming future yet unknown. If miracles like me admitting to a Junior College with a C6 in Mother Tongue ever happens... Now my intuition annoys me of the consequence of my decision. Every decision of mine seems to lay huge impacts on almost anyone.

I am pretty irritated that I have some annoying, immature nerds in my class. No one in this age would fancy a game of catching. Yet these mindless baboons can go wild in class and start playing with chairs and tables and chase each other around just to exchange puffy fists. I still can remember once when this nerd pushed me by accident and didn't apologized. The second time he pushed me, I flipped him and tossed him hard on the class floor. Geez... They ruffled my temper. I resent my class for having two groups of despicable human: One is a group of, as I mentioned before, immature nerds infatuated with anime and what they call, hentai. The other group would be bunch of tough guys who only exist to hurt people emotionally for pleasure. People like Jacky. Now my only friends in my current class are: Lukas, Heok Yong, Terence, Jia En, Li Qim, Hao Ming and Izzatie. I seldom get to meet up with my other friends from other classes. I rarely get to meet up with friends from other school. Reason being: 'O' and 'N' Level examination.

Now if I were to survive the current life while preparing for the future, I will have to rely on my extraordinary instincts. And most important of all: Adapt and Survive, like how I noticed Master Chief did in Halo 1 campaign, when he was always fighting alone(Excluding Cortana). Now come to think of it... Master Chief and Arbiter sure are serial killers, being able to annihilate covenants, Brutes and Floods all by themselves...