I do remember myself saying that I hate my father right? Now, I TOTALLY DESPISE THAT PIECE OF SHIT! All I wanted was some privacy. All  wanted is to have a quiet and peaceful place where no one disturbs me. Then WHAT THE FUCK! That son-of-a-bitch just cannot keep his "worse than dog" nose off me. Does anyone know how pissed off I could get when some nobody who thinks SHE is older than me could interfere with my stuff just giving fucking excuses that I should respect that person as SHE is older. I dare curse that fucked-up slob that his will rot and drop off and covered in leeches.

I'm already suffering from stress that I overate a lot this time. First is spam homework, then is the upcoming common tests, then not even able to do 6 bench-presses. Now some random shit coming to ruin my life by exposing me to publicity; exactly the same as to pull off your pants and shit in the main streets of North America. So this is reality huh?

I don't have much to post nowadays... It's gonna be the 'O' levels already. My mood just doesn't fit into the situation. I think I'm just too lazy. This means that I'm in the danger zone already; if I don't do something, something unpredictable might just happen, causing a really sad future upon me. I don't want this, seriously... No one takes the "O' levels lightly, except for some cocky screw-ups of my class who would happily procrastinate their studies into their usual "last-minute" routine, again. If I would ever get influenced by these losers, I might as well get my head under the guillotine.

Well... Talking all this weird stuff, I wanted to say something so that maybe an angel from Heaven might look upon me one day... This:

I am afraid no more.

I heard this saying, even though it might have been false, that "Only by confronting your darkest fears can you find the light". In fact, it is unarguably true. (BTW, this source is from a thriller web game I've played since a few weeks ago: http://www.hotel626.com/hotel.html)

Let not the darkness cloud your soul, but your will to clear darkness. Seek not what is within, but what is beyond.

Friends are like your flesh; when they suffer, you feel pain

We spoke of a guy who many people hated before. He was a Gemini, who loves to gossip and be a subject to gossips. The former never happened, however the latter is now part of his life He lives in solitude, where he is socially rejected. He has to hide among shadows to protect his 'face'. As a matter of facts, he had already lost his in an unforgettable incident since the year 2006, where he encountered his friend-turned-nemesis.

My friend told me that I was indeed similar to this guy. Similarity is not indifferent from congruency. I am contrast from him, given that I am sensitive to changes in life and is willing to seek for higher purposes in life. Why he's different is that he is very flat and predictable; a leopard can never change its spots. He is always depressed. He fakes laughter all the time, even though he should have known the facts that WE ALREADY KNOW THE TRUTH, and that we care for him. When he gets hurt, we feel irresponsibility in us. Ironically, the same friend who said that we are similar has already 'adapted' to his depressions and couldn't care less for him any longer...

Any suggestions to help him?