A 'heart'...
Is it just a shape, or an object?
Is it visible, or is it a feeling?

Our characteristics may change over time. We are round characters in this world who may become a better person, if not worse. Yet we are also flat characters in this world whose attitude may never be budged. As time flows in the motion of a long river. We slowly lose out on the traits of the Old People. We tend to believe in lies and shadow out the truth. Are lies the truths? Are truths just lies?

In some, they believe we ARE the Old People's descendants, but slowly evolving into a new breed of humans (E.g. The distinguish of Asians, Americans, Europeans, Australians, etc.) Some believe we evolve from apes. Some think we were 'created' by God. Others believe that we were never 'created' before, instead existed before anything else. Clear that we humans are intelligent; discovery of philosophies and religions, invention of trades and languages etc. The minority are also dumber than animals, believing that living is worthless. We also have came out with this new, peculiar discovery: Astrology.

Astrology's founders and researchers, Astrologists, believe that our horoscopes have changed because of the Earth orbit. I don't want to talk further into it. I'm not interested in their hypothesis and experimental bullshit. However, I totally despise these scientist no-good fucking worthless ape-shit. We are born to a certain horoscope, we should live on to it. BE PROUD OF YOUR STAR SIGNS! I was born a Cancer. I am expected to be sweet, sensitive and shy, and love nature. I won't mind these traits. But to shift from a Cancer to a Gemini... EAT YOUR BULLSHIT, MOTHERFUCKERS! I hate gossips...

I can barely recall. It was yet another dream. Maybe coincidence, maybe the future. I can't tell. All I knew was that I was just like that creature I "role-played" as all these while. Can you imagine how it feels like to board a long train which passes a temperate deciduous forest? This setting is a little too natural; no signs of human's infrastructures anywhere except the train's railroad. Furthermore, there were auroras of bright purple and green. They lit the black sky. It also feels as though it was before dawn, like 4am or so. I could smell the cool forest breeze even though I was sleeping and there was no air freshener in my room. Inside the train was a table with a cup of water and a book. Other than the table, I was unable to look around. All I knew was that I was NOT alone. I felt the presence of someone sitting beside me... blatant, you should know who. I seemed to have absolutely no qualms nor troubles over my head. My mind was so absorbed by the scenery. My heart heaved in its beatings. Though I could scent the breeze there, it also got a little hard to breathe, then. If only it was really true, regardless of whether it was a future, or an event in my second life, or even now... However, maybe not as that creature I appeared as inside the dream. It might just scare off people around me for good. Ha ha... ...

Neither a place, nor a destination
Uncontrolled by time, untouched by nation
Magnificent, silent and breathtaking realm
This path doth be "The Railroad Of Calm"

Blood and tears shed mean a lot,
but, knife on self's wrist means not.

From now, I can sigh a billion times on this guy... It's a friends of mine. He's going insane. Is he always left out like this in school, or did he do that just to attract attention? Does he think the entire civilization of Singapore hates him? Does his parents sell him for a small income to feed the rest of family? FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! I admit that I have taken too many blows on my emotions before. I understand it hurts being left out before, but have I ever, ever thought of a knife on my skin?

Man up! MAN UP I SAID, MAN UP!! No real man in this world would fall back from doubts. No soldier in war would ever want to wound themselves before entering the field. Unless you can name me any person in the world, other than yourself, who is willing to wound him/herself before a brawl.

One more thing. Spartans... Weren't you their biggest fans? Learn your idols' value: determination.

Spartans don't die. They re-spawn.

Read my blog title yet? That's all I have for you now, freak...

Ha! I JUST KNEW IT! I have always been better than my brother in sciences. Just realized that he's taking (Physics,Chem) while I am taking Pure Physics and Pure Chemistry. Pure sciences may allow a person to enroll in JC. That's an advantage. However, it is clearly harder to score than combined sciences.

(humbly) Maybe if I could score well for pure sciences... I don't want to disgrace my parents for not being able to graduate and wasting another year studying and retaking the 'O's. The best blessings I could ever receive are the ones from my best friends, from God... and a "good luck" from the girl I love... ...

We were invited to our senior's graduation for their 'O' levels. I could see that everyone(Except one or two guys...) made it to Poly and JC. Cannot remember the exact percentage scoring for JC, however, 99.5% actually made it to Poly. I congratulated them, especially my T&F seniors. Then one of my seniors patted me on my shoulder and said, "It will not be easy, chipmunk. You better do it, so that I can screw you again, next time in Poly." Apparently, he made it to Ngee Ann Polytechnic. This ironic encouragement has somewhat cleared the stains of doubt in my mind. I have a new, random saying:

Burn, cut or expose it to radiation for hours
For your skin is forever yours.

What does this mean?
For only this year. This year is the time where everyone must at least take a certain hardship. Hard work, resilience and tolerance are vital assets to great achievement. It's your choice to choose what's IN or what's RIGHT. I choose the latter. So what would YOU choose for THIS year?