Respect

I think people ought to pay some respect to anyone. I don't care how slight the respect is. Simple greetings like saying "Hello" or "Hi" or "Yo!" are ways to show one's respect to others. I am personally disgusted by people who know no manners. Much as I greeted them, they don't return. It feels downright like talking to a wall, or a person that doesn't exist altogether. It seems to me that age plays a part in receiving respect, because people only greet those who are older than them, and never to those of the same age, less to those younger.

There was this incident when the pathetic beings of my class taught me that they belong to species worse than dogs, meaning they are inferior to normal human beings. This incident happened on Tuesday, the 2nd of August. It was when my PE group had to implement our plans for the PE lesson for that day. I wasn't the appointed leader, although I was unofficially the one calling the shots, because of the below-average leadership capabilities of the appointed dude. Perhaps he was appointed by popular demand, or that people have yet to see me as a leader(Maybe yes, maybe no).

Anyways, my own original idea was to introduce the class tchoukball. However, the appointed leader and members were pretty easy to manipulate, so they followed my ideas. We carried out the plan as usual, with me instructing them on how to play. I briefly described the rules(Which I spent the whole night researching), but those goons were busy with their own conversations. I paused for a while for them to settle down, but to no avail. A member of my group then told me, "If they don't wanna listen, don't care them. Their stupidity for not knowing how to play are their own faults."

I agreed to her advice, so I just continued instructing them. Some of them listened to me and learned how to play the game. However, those who didn't bothered to listen insisted that my rules were not clear. I described the rules to them again, but Jacky(The FUCKED-UP asshole whom I mentioned on a lot of times in this blog) screwed around and created a big mess within the group. They followed suite and messed around, leaving me instructing the crickets and ants in the field. I was on the verge of pissing off. The appointed leader guy then told me, "Don't care them and just let them screw around. After all, teacher's looking at them."

The entire one hour of PE was wasted by those retards. The PE teacher asked for the class's opinion, and the same people said, "Instruction was not clear". Ever since that incident, the conflict between some of us have worsened, much like the conflict in Rwanda.

Is it just me, or is it that some people were poorly educated by their parents on basic manners? Can someone at least tell me if I have offended them in anyways, or is it that everyone except me are like that? Do they deserve retribution, or is this a common personality trend for this generation? Is it that some of us don't deserve any form of respect, or is it that they don't WANT to respect us? I can now agree with my mom and imply the saying on them that "You should respect others for them to respect you". Perhaps they are the true Definition of Gangsters.

Arrogance

"When pride overflows..."

Confidence is a virtue. There was a Chinese saying my parents used to nag at me with: "做人要有自信，不要自大". I used to think of these words meaningless. But now I realized how words have their own powers. Power, in this case, would mean "Obey or Die".

I just have to admit it because it really is unhealthy for me. It feels downright a sin to me. Pride... obviously is a sin. I won't admit so to my classmates nor friends, so I'll just have to share my torments here. I just feel troubled because this is so... the opposite of myself back then in Secondary 2. I was always so pessimistic and weak-resolved back then. Then now, the North Pole is forced through another North Pole, forcing through the repulsion. I became so full of myself that "anything is easy" seems to be a white lie. Someone who acts all high and mighty and says that he can do this and that, yet never did so. The Singaporean NS slang "chao keng" clearly suits this. Now I understand why my parents find me so despicable. Their dogged humbleness opposes my prejudiced pride, or is it the other way round... I don't treat others like dust by sneering at them nor anything like that. I don't laugh at people's incompetency. I NEVER look down on anyone either.... Sigh.. I wonder how can I atone for my sin of pride... I've really gone too far this time... That uneasy feeling whereby some nerds in school are starting to fear me, like a bunch of gerbils hiding in their cave homes when a lion approaches. Well.. I just hope that my friends won't mind me... I hope my bros like Mr "General Election", Mr UV Ray and Mr Rice can forgive me for who I am right now...