Disagreements

Thus far, I have found that I ain't the only one in disagreement with my family. There were also many who posted strained father-son, father-daughter, mother-son and mother-daughter relationships. Many indeed. Not just me. I do know that this buddy of mine, Mr General Election, have many conflicting arguments with his mother, which he mentions usually involve trivial matters like fighting over shoe sizes and so on... I do recall another of my buddy, Mr UV Ray, also suffers strained parent-son relationship. I think he despises both his parents, although it is just an assumption. As for me, my almost-lack-of-trust for my father, as a matter of fact, is quite an obvious one. He doesn't like me for my more-sophisticated and forever-adapting way of life. He despises how I change in order to survive in this world. He despises me for my "abuse" of intelligence to reward myself with complacency(Which I actually don't). On the other hand, I despise his workaholic, easily-brainwashed way of life. I abhor him for being so biased just to show his unusual fatherly love to my two other brothers. I hate him for hardly giving me the freedom to decide my life. I can guess many other people of my age WILL have at least a certain level of disagreement with either of their family members. Maybe just one person of the family... Maybe all of them... Even for me. After I lost faith of my father, lost a small level of trust to my mother, lost a moderately large amount of trust towards my elder brother, and lost complete faith of my younger brother, I had this felling as if I wasn't actually my parent's flesh and bones. I had this bad feeling as if I was actually an adopted child. I had no sense of belonging towards my family. Have I already achieved my own "independence", or have my family already abandoned me long ago? Kinda like a lion among tigers. But no matter how harsh family life can be for me as of now, I believe that I will soon leave my family in search of an independent life. A livable life. Very soon, I will have to take flight from this thrash of a house. I certainly hope that everyone else don't have such a family like mine who can choose to neglect one and only one child, which in my case is me. Very soon, I will escape from all this disagreements. Like how I always tend to fly away from troubles in almost every dreams of mine...