Decieving Rumors from Animated Corpses

I have finally found the answer I longed for an entire year... Credits to my critical senses and instincts, again. Guess my buddies are right when they say I'm really sensitive... The thought just came so naturally. Ever since that ass told me in words, "The rumors of you and ... were right."

• [...] refers to another girl whom I'd not like to mention here.

Samuel... Not just Jacky, but Samuel too... Just how many individuals in this world have my existence insulted? Did I say anything in a drunken stupor? Or have I even got drunk before? Do I really deserve all these resentment? Or do I look like a favorable punching bag? Am I the only one who belong to the Royals, and they the Guardians? I don't like fights that involve gossips only, because gossips to hurt a person is very much a soulless battle with a lack of resolve. If he wants to settle a dispute with me, I'd rather he settle it with a good fight. A one-on-one. Not a fight involving face-scarring.

I do remember him knowing that I made a vow "not to fall in love with anyone else". Either he's a patient of severe memory loss, or he's just a social reject and a belligerent skunk. This two years of Upper Secondary schooling and my love life was toyed around by that person who is more familiar with gay relationships than straight ones. He and his accomplices. So we were bound to meet and end up like this? A strained relationship and downfall in studies due to unnecessary and immature friendships. I should have strayed in solitude rather than befriending the likes of these lifeless, loveless nerds.

So ultimately, I have to admit that I have not and never forgotten her yet. Like a permanently-sealed portrait in the gallery of my heart. If only I wasn't destined into 5/6B and made to sit beside her in class back then... Perhaps things would have changed. God played His dice. It landed like this, so I'll just have to accept it if it was really His will for me...