I sincerely apologize to everyone out there who visited my blog before and did not find much updates. Well, my blog was dead, only for temporary. After all, I am the kind of guy who is possible in achieving rebirth :)

Anyways... To speak of my mind right now, I feel heartache. I don't know why. I have yet to reconcile with the girl I like, I thought maybe I might need more time for this. Also, I seem to have changed again. A drastic change in emotions. Wonder why though... Only for today did my heart heave a lot. It cost me my appetite in the afternoon and evening. It made me sidetrack off my work which is vital for preparing for the common tests this term. It preoccupied me and made emo songs play in my mind like a broken music recorder. I thought maybe I left out on a lot of things in my life, such as playing basketball and doing sit-ups and pumping. Instead, I have aimed for the better; doing hand-stand pumping. This requires pure effort as one must never think of toppling over and landing on their neck, which obviously would kill.

However, again, I thought, "What's the use of this?"

Doing such a pointless thing, does it improve others impression of your Herculean strength, or does it just make people think of you as a brainless brute? Is it really worth risking your neck for a mere stunt which ultimately hurts you? Indeed, my life do have flaws; I'm not perfect.

The definition of "brilliance" is not easy to decipher. Take Albert Einstein for an example. He was born a "Mutant" as he was able to invent (E=m c^2) and other intelligent stuffs. However hard he 'deviates' from our society in terms of intelligence, he is NOT perfect. A "brilliant" man is not one who could do 5000 chin-ups. He is not one who gets 8 A1s out of 8 subjects either. There were never ways to achieve "brilliance". From then, I knew it was time to face reality. I was never a splendid person. I was just too cocky, too immature to think that I could outmatch everyone in my school in terms of sports and fitness, studies and leadership. Constructing false beliefs and visions in my mind was fool's play. I know this world well; no one is "brilliant". None in this world can even strive supremacy if one can't even surpass oneself.