It would only be right if I was honest... to myself. I just had a word with a childhood friend. He also has as much of problems as I do, once. He said he could handle it. He admitted he was a soloist. He doesn't want to bring his friends into his own conflicts, yet offers to help the same group of friends who offered to help. What a tough guy!

Ahem... Anyways.. I spoke to him about what the hell should I do. I explained it a little different to him, rather than how I would always bring it about (Only similarity is that my tone sounds really, really stupid). His only message was: worthiness.

He asks me whether I was honest about this relationship, and that I had 2 choices. One of which was just to give up on her. The other was... 安部就门...

I am taking things at too fast a pace. I have to slow down. Everything single achievements in this world have to be started from scratch... just like learning Chinese; it takes quite a while to learn 汉语平阴, before starting with 深字, then followed by 成语 and other stuff.

Also in this romance issue, everything also must start from scratch. It just takes a pinch of patience to create a miracle.

Love ,unlike gambling, doesn't require any bit of luck.A born-unlucky guy like me shouldn't and wouldn't have fell in love with a girl if luck speaks for our lives.

I shouldn't give up yet. Instead, I shall slowly do this, for at least I'm NOT alone...