"Great rewards come with sacrifices."

Sigh... It is a little too sudden a news for me- no, for US. It was already there for three months, right inside my mother's tummy. She is carrying the fourth child of my family, my youngest sibling. I'm not sure whether it would be a 'he', or a 'she'. Worst is, she doesn't even know if she should keep the baby. My father is alright with another child. However, he only wants to make sure that the child is healthy and safe.

Imagine if the child would be kept... Of course I would be elated to have another younger sibling... I just dunno what to say... I'm speechless.

We will have to abandon our pet dog when my younger sibling enters this world. For my pet dog has always been so noisy, such that EVERY TIME a neighbor passes, she MUST BARK ALL HER VOICE ON HIM/HER/IT!! Afraid that the dog might disturb my future sibling, we have no choice. Even I may shed tears on the fact, because... It's hard to explain.

Also, all 3 of us will not be cared for as much as how much it is during the PRESENT.

In a moonlit night,
The Moon takes the limelight.
While his lackeys, the stars, cried
Even upon how hard they've tried.

Both my parent's care would shift into caring for the youngest, just like how it was always like in the past. Born the middle child in a family is really a calamity for me. I was never cared as much as my brothers. My grandma and father was always talking about my elder brother, about how he was able to go into a good school around the neighborhood: Riverside, while how this failure, halfwit son landed on Evergreen. I have absolutely no qualms in entering Evergreen rather than that dreaded school: I can avoid seeing Zhang Wen Han the loser's face, while able to joke around with Greenwood Primary friends of the past... But my happiness didn't come in full, especially segregating from my closest friends, my cronies...
Oh! Then there is my mom. She cares more for my little brother AND elder brother than me. She was always talking about how immature and incompetent I was compared to that geek, and how mischievous I was compared to that brat. The only compliment I ever received from both my parents simultaneously was: how quick I'm in adapting to school stuff, and that I was the most intelligent and strongest(in terms of strength and speed) compared to both my brothers.

Everything's changed. The tides have turned. I have to change, into a new me; the independent Alvin S.L