You know... These few days were about my studies as well as to restore that physical capability I've lost over those 2 weeks before. It was HELL, training so much and it is not enough. I promised some that I will get tougher, whereas promise others I will not outdo my body and its limits. Hard time here.

Sometimes I even wonder whether she actually hates me now. Do I think? That is the question. Seriously even I could not get accurate answers as those people who answered my questions just cannot resist not hurting my feelings. Isn't it better to feel hurt now than more hurt later? I need opinions to change myself before I can change someone else. Get what I mean? Before I go round helping others, I should help myself first...

And how boring these few days were. Learning new things, doing new homework, going to a whole new different and more painful life. I don't even get that holiday mood no more... Anime got more boring than I have felt it was cool in the past. Facebook is getting more of pain on the neck than a daily chore. Even my once favorite drinks are no longer "favored"...