My apologies to all those who wished me out of home to hang out, play basketball etc.

I have many different presets to why I rejected your offers. First, my parents are getting suspicious of my recent outdoor activities. I found this as an efficient way to lower their suspicions. Also I felt really weak physically after the need for so many trainings to build myself up. These trainings were then thought by me as "worthless". You wanna know why?

Recently, few of my friends said I looked quite fierce these few days. I checked the mirror and to no avail, I really looked stern. Could it be because of an alter of personality in me? Could it be because of those recent events where either I had no chance to visit her and not having anything much of interest to say even if I did see her? I feel lost again.