Parallel Shift

Shadows can never have their own sense of belonging. Always mimicking the footsteps of people. Forever stalking them to receive their undeserved attention. To the extent of people treating their existence as "conventional and worthless". Of course, no one in this world want to be shadows, unless he is really gay, or she a lesbian. Ever heard of "zero-point inversion"? I kinda figured this phrase out myself. "Zero-point inversion", in my opinion, would mean seeing something in a one-sided perspective, however avoiding the internal reality which could be the entire opposite. Like seeing black as white, and seeing green as red. This "zero-point inversion" happened to me for so long... Like how I used to see that girl as a quiet and delicate girl, until recently when I found out she's a foul-mouthed FREAKING LESBIAN!

Rather than dwell in past failures, I have decided to start afresh as a "new" person in school. It may seem to some people in my class as turning over a new leaf, yet it may seem to people like Jacky that I have gone ape-shit and lost all of my conscience and turned into a lunatic.
A message to those who thought I turned over a new leaf: I'm merely removing this mask on me for at least 3 years and 8 months.
Message to Jacky's accomplice who think me crazy: Fuck You.

Ever since i started partaking active roles in class well-being and other nick-knacks, many people in my class(Excluding Jacky and slumlord friends) started to think me as an approachable and hilarious person. I'm very sure Mr Rice, Mr UV Ray and Mr GE can imagine. As such I have been deprived of a lot of free time I used previously to sleep and take naps and slack... I feel very, very busy. Yet I feel a certain accomplishment in this. After all, I gained high levels of trust of at least one-third of the class population.

some shadows have to remain inferior... forever