Flash

"Sometimes... it would be better to be kept in the dark than knowing it"

I have yet another reason to hate Mondays more. Marking the start of the weekdays, Modays also mark the start of misery for just any students. Have to bath, eat and rush all the way to school all in one hour.

However, that's not the sole reason for my hate for Mondays. Every Monday, I have to face this horrendous reality of my failure in my love life. Especially when of all the guys there are in school, WHY DOES IT ALWAYS HAVE TO BE THAT DOUCHE?! I thought... that I could forget all these happenings in school... All so sudden. Count me as a strong guy to be able to survive such a miserable life while trying to go 'cold turkey' and trying to forget about her. But... Why? Why does she keep appearing? Why do I always see her in a situation I always dread since the start of my Secondary life when some asshole try to get the hots of her?

Leave alone my frustration of rejection... Why does she keep appearing in my life as a permanent curse laid on me? I really want to let all these be buried and never brought up ever again... However it seems that God DOES flip a coin to determine our fates. Assuming that head means good and tails mean misfortune, the coin never fails to land on tails for me...

Five years of childhood memories will indeed pose a great challenge on me in order to totally rid of it. It certainly feels like intended amnesia, it also feels like ripping off a pound of flesh from my left chest. My mind has given my all into this insane challenge, however my heart trolls it... My heart constantly aches whenever I remember about her all of a sudden.

Fine! I have high chances of failing this challenge which might eventually rip me off my conscience and sanity. So I kinda thought of this...

My most wanted birthday present is a second chance to succeed.