Restless

I should, and I MUST, convince myself to relax and realign myself back to the "study mood". I swear I did get proper rest everyday, and I can assure too that I am eating healthy, gauging 2 liters of water, if not more, every single day. I don't have any persistence of my asthma, and I certainly did accomplish at least 30 sit-ups and 10 push-ups, if not more, EVERYDAY. However, why am I so restless? Why do I still feel that troubled? And for the most of it, WHY DO I STILL DREAMING OF HER?

Unable to multitask as I usually do at home, such as blogging, listening to 98.7FM, and doing my CH(Combined Humanities) Literature assignments, all at the same time. There certainly are unfinished business that I haven't attend to. Or maybe I just.. well.. miss her. There is a superstitious saying from my parents that:
If A(guy) keeps dreaming of B(guy) in his sleep, B is very important to A. If A(guy) dreams of B(girl) in his sleep consistently, then A definitely misses B.
However, I ain't superstitious, so I ain't totally convinced of that saying.

Sometimes, healthy but restless people were just distracted by activities which they deem "interesting", but this "interesting" things just failed to enlighten them. Briefly speaking, they are just bored. However in some times, restless means troubled. Mostly because of stress that they can't control, or something is "missing" in life. I feel that it could be either one, or even both.

Deep in my heart are two requests:
one is "Someone, please enlighten thee".
while the other feels more of a quest:
"I'm sorry... Please forgive me."