"I wanted to help by lighting a path with my torch,
yet you all would rather a series of risks and fear through the dark
just to reject my help?"

Today was the Chinese New Year bazaar. As usual, no one needs my help. I'm no leader, I lack the charisma to be volunteered. What's changed is that I'm not the useless guy they knew anymore. Despite the change though, they did not care. In their eyes, I am forever useless and they don't need me.

BUT so what? After all, they should know very well that opportunity only knocks once. My help is rejected, it's not me at fault for their downfall. I already foretold that if my kind offer was accepted, our stall could have been BEST among the entire charity bazaar. I also knew so well that I could bet my life that if I was rejected by those sore losers, our class would never be recognized. I could laugh that all of the shouting from Fitri, Sevester and Aishah were totally in vain, for that just made them idiots and clowns in the canteen food booth. Like how most of those losers from the same class as me since Secondary 1 until now have treated me, retribution brings upon their shame. They don't recognize me, the whole school doesn't give a fuck about them. After all, my class is solely an epic fucked-up failure of "emos who don't even care for win or lose".

In their philistine eyes, I am just an "extra". While in my cultivated views, they are just anti-social freaks. Especially that Jacky. He thinks that acting cute can attract attention of others so that he can eradicate me with a one-shot blow. LOSER! One day it might be me who's gonna get rid of him...

Oh! Did I mention that I shall be overseas from tomorrow the 3rd of February until Sunday the 6th of February? Every Chinese families will have a need to visit their relatives for the New Year. We have to pray to our ancestors for blessings for all aspects of our lives. Perhaps my true wish should be kept a secret, however I shall wish for longevity in both life and happiness for every single person in this world, young and old, guy and gal. I wish all Chinese a happy Lunar New Year, and everyone else a desirable February!