Perhaps I know why I get this thought that my life is miserable. It is quite obvious that everyone in this world, including God, is unfair towards me. They regard my existence as a message from Hell that the world meeting its demise is close.

Without looking into religious views, maybe because I was always naive in my perceptions to reality. I keep my head up and shine with confidence. However confidence is never a factor to success. People are either born strong to survive in this changing world. Or they are born such that they are not even worth walking this world. I am one of them.

The "strong" people is given rights to "bully" the "weak" socially. They start with high performance in all aspects. They attract attention and become popular people. With so many friends, they can seek to criticize the "weak" people. These "weak" people are then called average or unpopular guys. That's right. People who are only average cannot survive here. This world is meant only for talented people to walk on. If Adolf Hitler still survives on this era, I would be killed first before all the Mr. Popular get welcomed and served a cup of tea.

How biased this world is against me. I find myself just wasting time doing things here. Sow seeds and reap nothing. All these while I can never improve in academy. Worked so hard in Chinese Language and still fail. Took the whole semester of working hard and only 10 minutes of rest between 4 hours of learning proper Chinese. Wrote 15 Chinese Compositions and 8 Chinese situational writings and none of them can get me a fucking B4. All these while, is God trying to tell me I am never supposed to do Chinese and Mother Tongue only serves as a trap on my academy results?