The world's being unfair. First off, I found out and already knew, even sensed, that I'm out there being ostracized. No one praises my hard work, everyone blames me for trouble. What the hell can I do so that you all wouldn't blame me no more?!?

Even God is unfair towards my well-being. What I mean is, why my best mental focus myself cannot even be compared to the mental focus of an average person? It feels as though one of those ghosts from Harry Potter is near and invisible to me, sucking away my mental focus..

This is what I'm gonna say. I mean, maybe usually whatever I do would look like as though I am good for nothing. I don't like that, maybe people had found that as my weakness?

Some bastards will try to avoid me because of that, thus I had always thought I was born solitary. That's not cool, ya know.