It takes a swing of a knife to create a scar, but takes 30 stitches and 30 days of pain to undo it

Today is my father's birthday. Two out of three of his sons have had his presents ready. Guess who's the "unfilial" one? Me.

I can still remember how I got that grudge against him. Because of that 100 marks incident. Then, I can still remember how many worlds different we were then. I hated him, he didn't even bother to assist in undoing this grudge. That fucking tight slap was very painful, especially when a child's defenseless.

Now, his birthday, an annual day, has entered again. How am I supposed to make amends with him when all he do in the dining table is eat, talk racist trash, smoke and leaving me out of my other brother... Ah heck!! I am just too good to be placed in their caliber... What am I saying?!