Before the actual event had taken place, I was so distracted and nervous that I slept in at different intervals. Remembering clearly is I went to the restroom a total of 7 times. Not anything embarrassing though. Because I just drank a little too much water before sleeping in. Yeah, today I felt very exhausted as though finished a war. My eyelids were struggling to open. My head felt like a whirlwind and spinning around. My muscles were barely operational. In the end all these sufferings lead to nothing. N-O-T-H-I-N-G!!!

No one will understand how devastated I would feel when I am not even certain on how important or inferior is my presence to her. Worse, when I don't even know WHAT THE FUCK IS MY COMPOSITION SCORES!?!?!!?!?!?!