A New Beginning

  Oh dear... I just noticed that "Breaking Dawn" is actually a title for one of the main chapters of the Twilight Saga, so I'll be changing it. Still it took me pretty long to notice that...

  Now, I pretty much like the headline for this post. Really, I am serious. "A New Beginning". A new life in Polytechnic. Old ex-schoolmates, different attitude and approach towards my social life and whatever conflicts to come. I figured out that since my mindset has actually matured, so why not start making an impact on my future now? However, proud as I may be, I am not TOTALLY proud of what happened today...

  The business-admin course population is very high indeed. We were split into many small groups of 20 people each. I guess I was indeed fortunate enough that I landed in Group 7, which "7" is an adored number between me and my best childhood friends. Initially there was only one person who knew me. She only knew me for the once-introvert part of me(During my early stages of development). Then when I openly expressed myself... I am not sure if I was coherent enough...

  So I knew more than half my group, and befriended them along the way. Well... Kinda embarrassing for me to say this... My first few friends(Guys) all claim that I am the person among us who seems to be better in "interacting with the fairer sex", which is sorta ironic for my "softness" towards them... Anyways, we had more fun in ice-breaking games than station-activities. I am impressed at how well our seniors had planned everything, even though time-management and level of fun seems to have gotten beyond control. We were literally bored after the lunch break, which in turn caused our downfall in the station games, which I guess required "motivation". To put it simply, we were demotivated after the lunch break, although we were at our fullest in the "get-to-know-one-another-games".

  Same home area, same school, different courses. now that's what I call a "distant relationship". I mean my old friends, of course. We would sometimes board the same train in the station to the same destination. Then we would part ways within campus, them journeying on down the road and me scaling a mountain. We still talk together sometimes, well maybe except for a friend or two... Chat about how is life in campus. Chat about life outside campus. Chat about common interests. Chat to maintain relationships and kill time while boarding the robot-packed train.

  I sweat a lot these days... The combination of hot weather and inner-anxiety. I don't understand why I am anxious about, but I definitely know that I am endlessly preoccupied in my mind and can never stop thinking, and it became a bad habit. If only I could stop imagining totally random things, and get on with life with some space in the oak barrel for more fresh wine. If only I could find somewhere peaceful, quiet, cool, and penetrate into my mind and eradicate all those nonsense in me... That way, I can start a totally New Beginning.