Bliss

The End of The End... The GCE 'O' Level examinations are quickly coming to an end. What bugs my mind the most right now is the fact that tomorrow is Social Studies examination, the bane of all students, and I am here blogging as though it never existed. I really don't know how to survive this. Not anymore. Are my skills for the Source-Based Questions enough to score me enough to pass this test? This is one of the three final tests; the Test of Luck. Thus far, I have only memorized the principles of governance and measures to control traffic. Others like reasons to promote population growth, ageing population, conflicts and consequences of conflict in Sri Lanka and Northern Ireland are very vague; not enough to score my 'C's... Worse still, there were rumors that 'traffic in Singapore' will never come out as the 'N' Level students have already sat for that topic... The next two final tests are those that will determine whether I will ace both of my Pure sciences, get 'B's, or pathetic 'C's.

I really, really, really DON'T WANT to land in an engineering course. I am just not interested in these mechanic-attributed courses, as I really get very sleepy when it comes to Physics. No matter how best and interesting my teacher was, I'd fall asleep inside; they would never notice. Most of the time when I take naps in class, my head would not be on the table. I would just blank out and look as though I am dreaming about something. No. I ain't a dreamer. Sometimes when I slack, music would smoothly run over my mind. The lyrics clear as the sound of a drop of water landing in a pool secluded in a room of vacuum.

Moreover, I am more interested in certain courses that require skills and insights, or presentation and projectworks, such as business or media. Life sciences would be okay, too, if not for the dozens of dozens of complicated names for chemicals and whatever putty and gooey stuff involved in these courses. My current aspiration is to land in a Junior College. Despite my poor standard in Mother Tongue. I wouldn't mind actually; what's important is that I ace my other subjects to cover up for my setbacks. Of course I do have back-up plans too: what I mentioned earlier in this paragraph.

I find it hard to swallow. I really don't want to leave my current friends venturing into my new life. I feel as though I belong to a family already... How should I explain it... Well... Anyone read "The Chrysalids"? Chapter 10, I think. When David admitted that he is closer to the other telepaths than to his own sisters. That's exactly how I feel right now. Especially because I am going to have to say goodbye to newfound friends, two-years cronies, four-years ex-classmates, six-years close friends... six-years lover... If I encountered a genie, my three wishes would be:

1) Wish one of my good friends bliss in his/her future
2) Wish another good friend of mine bliss in his/her future
3) Wish for more wishes (or genies for three more wishes)
3) 1) Wish another good friend bliss in his/her future
3) 2) Wish another good friend bliss in his/her future
3) 3) Wish for more wishes (or genies for three more wishes)
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Until finally... Wish for bliss in my own future...

What is the True Definition of 'bliss'? I have found the Definition of 'bliss' which I want. Although it may not come true...

"To reconcile with the lost, To reunite with the beloved"

This may not be yours. Everyone will find his or her own Definition of 'bliss' one day. One day...