Fragments

For your information, this is my 165th post. Ever since I started this blog, life's changed. Yet tradition doesn't. Like before, I always had misunderstandings and conflicts with my family. This happened on the exact frequency as compared to my past.
My parents were forever on the lookout on my every movement. They just had nothing better to do than to screw me. Unlike Mr Jackass(Jacky), they always pinpoint on how I underperformed in my grades. This is my conflict with my parents.
My brothers are all the same; they can't be bothered to be updated on how I am now. As long as I'm around, their impression would be "asshole" or "annoying". My bastard brother went to the extent of calling me an "extra". Well, screw him. As long as that fuck stays clear of whatever shit I'm doing, I'm fine. I don't have much conflicts with my younger brother though. Maybe sometimes he's in a bad mood (Well he's FOREVER in bad moods) then will he remain silent even when I was speaking to him. Any considerations of how I feel when ignored especially in my current state?
My conflict with my grandmother, who I nicknamed him "Rotten Orange" because he ate a rotten orange from his random friend, fainted and interrupted our holidays and made us rush all the way from Malacca to Singapore. This was a total waste of time. Anyways, my conflict with him was Going Green vs Bad Habit. He has a bad habit of switching on the goddamn laundry lights and leaving it on all the way from last night to the next morning. While I now have a developed habit to counter this, either by switching off the light and get complained by him to my parents, or I just take the house mop and FUCKING SWING IT ON THE LIGHT BULB and still get scolded by my parents.

Pretty routine things are happening. But as I said, life's changed. I'm no longer concerned about my past horrible experiences. Although I still have a zombie phobia. I'm no longer crazy about that girl like before. I never express my depressions through being an emo, like my Spartan friend. I found out that resolve doesn't come in whole; they are like fragments waiting to be pieced together to give a clear picture. I have many small fragments of resolve in my life. Once I attain all of them, I shall join them together. I will find the big picture in my life. I will find the reason why I was born in this world; what is my role in this world; of what purpose is my actions going to get the world to achieve. All this... I'll just have to wait later.